I don’t think Jordan fully understood the impact of what he was saying as he was saying it, but his words his me in a way I was not expecting. He was observing me use a power tool just as he’d observed my daughter use the very same one days before. He saw me…and he saw her in me.
As I am approaching my 35th birthday, I am becoming overwhelmingly aware of just how much tomorrow is not promised. My sister-in-law was 35 when she went home to be with The Lord. There are children dying as a result of senseless violence quiet more often than I’d like. Death has no age limit, and the knowledge of just how much I do not control is becoming more and more renowned.
So, as I am approaching my 35th birthday, my thoughts wander toward… am I satisfied with the mark I’ve left in the world as of today?! This question was reigning in my mind before Jordan spoke these words to me, and the question has now shifted to… am I okay with Anaya becoming who I am today?
Then the question becomes… who am I?
Today I choose to honor myself by acknowledging I am someone who can do hard things for the betterment of my mental, physical, and spiritual health so I can show up more fully for those who need me most. I am not perfect, nor do I strive to be. I am a beautiful workmanship of my Heavenly Father, and more and more each day I’ve come to know my strength comes from Him. If I can live a life before Anaya and her brothers that shows an unrelenting reliance on god, then I am satisfied. If they come to know that God is fully in control and it’s alright to REST and REMAIN in Him JOYFULLY, then I am good.
Today, I’d like to encourage you to honor yourself by highlighting who you are in this very moment. I’m certain there is much to be proud of, and we could all give ourselves a lot of credit.
Xo!
