I’ve found myself fully present as of late. I’ve found myself living in the moment rather than living with a bunch of tabs open in my mind. I am grateful. This morning I sat on the couch holding my daughter who is sick fully feeling the warmth of her body and smelling the funk in her breath. LOL! I watched Riah snuggled with a blanket in the corner of the couch reading a book, and I observed Theo and Uzi play thumb war on the other end. I was fully present in that moment, and for that I am grateful. Time does not stand still for us. This became overwhelmingly real for me last year when my sister-in-law passed away. Just because we needed a moment to catch our breath and mourn didn’t mean the rest of the world was going to pause for us. We still had bills to pay and work to do to insure we had resources to pay those bills. We may have been mourning, but others were celebrating new life, promotions, marriages, etc.
Time stands still for no one. No matter how much we wish it to be the case.
My friend, Anjuli, constantly encourages us to “stay awake to love.” I believe this message is resonating so deeply in my heart these days, and I’m just grateful for the life I get to live with my people. I’m not sure what season of life you’re in right now, but my prayer is that you would be able to experience moments of full presence in the moment. I pray for more frequent moments like the one I described, because keeping it all the way real I’m ALWAYS thinking about the next thing or the long list of to-do in my head. I deserve to live fully in the moment, because truthfully at any given moment, the next thing can quickly become irrelevant. I told my therapist not too long ago that I desire to live well. I think what that looks like, feels like, and sounds like is beginning to become real for me. For that, I am grateful!
What does living well look like for you?
Xo!
