Do you ever wonder if your desires are from the Lord? I do! There is soooooo much I am desirous of doing and being, and I often times wonder where it all comes from. Let’s just consider a few of my desires for a moment…
I want to be a carpenter. I have this strange desire to furnish my home with all things I’ve made. I have no knowledge whatsoever of carpentry, but I know if I had the time & resources I could be very good at it!
I want to be a photographer. I am in love with freezing moments/seasons in time.
I want to be an event coordinator. It gives me life to be able to plan, organize and decorate for special celebrations in life.
I want to be a graphic designer. I see things… If I have a vision in my mind I want to be equipped with the knowledge of how to get it out for others to see!
I want to be a professional DIYer. What that looks like I have no idea, but I like making things myself, and I enjoy receiving things someone has made especially for me!
I want to impact education. I teach math. I enjoy teaching math. However, I’m finding there’s a deeper desire in me to impact education beyond the four walls of my classroom. What does that look like? Again, I have no idea! SMH!
I want to be a stay-at-home-mom. I mean everyone’s doing it! LOL! No, really, I would love to be home to raise my children, watch them develop & educate/mold their young minds more hours out of the day than I already get to.
These are literally just a “few” of my desires. Among them is my recreational desire to travel, hike & enjoy the great outdoors. Recently I had a conversation with someone I truly respect and admire about the recent developments of career goals I have, and he said “YOU CAN HAVE IT ALL!” Five words… All of them 4 letters or less and each one syllable, but they carry so much weight! I believed him for all of 2 minutes but I still don’t believe that I, in fact, can have it all. I’m too much of a practical person to think this is even possible! I mean look at all of the things I’ve listed above. Does one have to do with the other? I’ve tried to rack my brain around it all to see if there was one career or thing that I could do where all these desires are being met. This conversation happened a couple weeks ago and I’m still dumb-founded!
Now, I’ve gone to thinking… Maybe I can have it all, but not all at the same time. Maybe each and every one of my desires are desires instilled in me from the Lord, but they can only be fulfilled in different seasons of my life. A few months ago, I diagnosed myself as being high-functioning depressed. I was comparing and contrasting my life with the life of others. I was finding myself confused about who I am and what I want to do with my life. To be honest, the comparing, contrasting & confusion have not necessarily gone anywhere. I think the difference now is I choose not to become consumed by it all. Ecclesiastes 3 speaks straight to this idea of seasons. Verse 1 begins, “To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven.” Verse 11 says, “[God] has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity into man’s heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end.” I have not wholly wrapped my head around what this scripture means, but I understand that God has a way of working things out & it’s a process that must be fulfilled in me.
To be continued… I think!
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I'm a thirty-four year old wife, mother of four, podcast host, and writer from San Diego, California. I'm a former math teacher turned stay-at-home parent and influencer with the unique opportunity to bring women into community with one another and encourage them in their seasons of life through my podcast, Yvette, Unplugged and my online community, Women, Unplugged.
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